i had this awful dream that i was staying in an unfamilliar house with my two kids, and it was late at night and we'd just got in from some function or another, and i was sitting at the kitchen table telling the kids what they needed to do to get ready for bed, when through the frosted glass of the door's window i saw a very large man's sillhouette appear. i wasn't expecting anyone and so i panicked when he started to jiggle the door handle. within a few seconds he had the lock popped and was coming towards me. i realized that i couldn't freak out or the kids would freak out so i just stood up really quickly and and said, "hi there handsome," and he grabbed me by the upper-arms and i was thinking, i should act like he's by boyfriend and get him to take me into the bedroom so the kids won't see me being raped, and he was saying nothing, just trying to wrestle me down to the ground and the kids were standing there staring at us and then something in me snapped. i became unfrozen and jerked my arms out of his grasp. i made my hands into fists and started clubbing him in the face as hard as i could. i yelled at the kids, "run, run to the neighbours, run! tell them mommy's in trouble, just go!" and they ran out the door as the man started to try to hit me back. i grabbed one of his wrists and let his other hand hit me in the face. even though it hurt and i felt temporarily blinded i managed to wrangle his arm behind his back and he bent over and shouted in pain. i was behind him now and forced my knee up hard into his kidney. this made him collapse down onto his knees and i fell with him and pinned him under me. any time he tried to move or wriggle i forced his arm up into his back further and he'd shriek in pain. and i just remember saying, "you fucking idiot. did you really think i'd let you rape me twice? did you really think i'd let you do that in front of my kids?" and he was crying incoherently.