barely there

in my dream last night, leon and i were in this thrift shop looking at used sofas and armchairs and bookshelves. we found a pair of pristine overstuffed armchairs that matched. they were both off-white, tweedy material, with bright, colourful threads spattered throughout, almost like confetti. i loved them and asked him to find out how much they were. the lady at the counter said, "$1.50 a piece or $2.00 for both!" i was like, "OKAY! LEON GET THE ROOF RACKS OUT!" we gave her the money and leon ran outside to get the car all ready to transport them home on the roof, but he came back in a minute later saying that he'd forgotten the roof racks at home and that he'd be back shortly with them. he instructed me to stay behind so that no one else would take our precious arm chairs. i sat down in one of them and waited.

after a few minutes, my first love walked into the store. he took one look at me and knelt beside me. "i've been wandering around for TWO YEARS looking for you, lynn," he said, taking my hand in his, "and now i've found you and i'm not going to lose you again." and he pulled me up out of the chair and led me to a day bed that was also for sale. he stripped me down and we started making love in the middle of the store. after the first "round", he wanted to go again, and i was willing, except suddenly i remembered my husband! filled with guilt and anguish and mixed emotions i told first love that there was no way we could do that again, even though i wanted to, and that i was horrified i'd done it at all because i knew it would break leon's heart to find out. first love was crying, begging me to stay with him in this bed in the thrift shop, begging and pleading, but i knew i had to go. as i got dressed i saw that the whole shop full of people had been watching us. i was mortified and wished that i could disappear. then i noticed that as i put on each article of clothing, that part of my body would vanish. first my breasts, as i clipped on my bra. then my hips and crotch as i slipped on my panties. then my chest and belly and arms as i pulled a shirt on over my head, and then my legs and feet as i put on my skirt and shoes. finally i was just a disembodied head floating through the shop to the front door to wait for leon outside. first love yelled at me as i stepped out, "how can you be with him? how? you're barely there at all!"