invitation by omission

early autumn rain caused her lips to bloom succulent
and her limbs to cool and soften as petals unedged.
gossamer drapes gently swelling and shrinking
and releasing wafts of her faint perfume lured you;
she had all the windows open even as the air turned chill.
all the fat rain drops on her window sill
smeared and slick under your fingertips as you
smuggle yourself in as a thief
would attend his own funeral.
gladly die a thousand little deaths there, dear
smother under her downy covers and drown in honey hot
in relation to (and defiance of) the turning season.
there is no love like the love of your murderess,
languid summer days fading: panther-like, undressed.

i had the most terrible dream last night. i was having an affair. i was meeting the man at some kind of sex club where he'd rented a private room. when i got there, we started to have sex right away but soon another man came into the room and tried to rob us. the man i was having the affair with went completely beserk and murdered this other guy brutally, right in front of me, and then ran away. i pulled on all my clothes and walked out of there going holy shit, holy shit, holy shit. i didn't want to tell anyone what had happened because the fact that i was cheating would get out. but i also knew that it would only be a matter of time before the cops came looking for my lover and me. it was actually a really terrible, terrible feeling.

then somehow i was sleeping at the top of this multi-story circus tent, on an air mattress, with misha on his own mattress next to me. we were out in the woods. it was probably four or five stories high. early in the morning the big top tent started to fall down and we fell with it. but we were safe because of the air mattresses under us. the fall took a long time, it was kind of like floating. i was worried about the poles hitting me on the head on the way down.

then i found a notebook julian had been doodling in. it was full of porno he'd drawn. i didn't quite know what to make of that so i just put it back where i'd found it.

then i was naked in the woods, behind a puppet show screen. and there was a strange naked man behind me. we were putting on an adult puppet show. he was having sex with me while we performed and the audience had no idea. his penis was a very strange shape. sort of flattened and rigid and thick. then i awoke.