infidel

i keep having these intensely sexy dreams about a boy i'm friends with. i've had three in the last week. they always go the same way: hot and heavy make out session, then guilt makes us stop before any sex actually happens. but each one gets progressively closer to intercourse. last night we both got nekkid. i always wake up with flushed cheeks and "oh no, it's not what it looks like!" on my lips. it's strange because i normally don't feel guilty over sex dreams i have that involve people other than leon. but this one is getting to me. i feel all dirty and bad but don't really want them to stop. and no, i won't tell you who they are about.